unnamed vol.666

When love dies, you feel like a child whom has lost her parents.
not having anything to cling on, anything to hope for.
When all hope is lost, when the last glimmer of light fades away, then you'll realise,
you are nothing.
When the breath escapes, as the last drop of blood falls, you know it is the end, and the
horsemen are coming.


I know my days are counted for, outnumbered. Still im clinging to this life, like a moth to a flame.
Searching hope, forgiveness, and a reason to live on.


Beneath all these scars, all this dirt and guilt i am still alive
After all those years, im still alive
After everything you put me trough, after all the blame, all the lies and all the emotions, im still here.
Now free as a bird i can arise and let my soul fly.

I still remember all those days, the days i were alive.
I still remember the warmth you caused. The everlasting burn.

Now i am cold, the whole core of what i once called myself is now in frost.
Cold and lonely.
Every morning is agony, every breath breaks me into spliters.
I torment myself by looking your picture, every day, before the end.
Nothing is like it used to be, even the sun feels cold compared to the feelings i had.
Now my core is depleted, im nothing more than an empty shell.

I hope our paths shall cross once more. I wish for a second chanse to correct the things i did, what i said.
You have a new life out there, with someone else.
And still these walls whisper your name, the wind and the rain.
I am void, i am cold, i am the last, i am the forgotten.

Now i need to carry on by myself, wear the mask of my past self.
The fake smile hurts more every day.

I still remember all those days, the days i were alive.
I still remember the warmth you caused. The everlasting burn.

Even if everything dies, my love for you is immortal.

Kirje rakkaalle.

Oletko onnellinen hänen kanssaan? Onko elämäsi nyt kaikkea mitä halusit? On kulunut nyt vuosi siitä, kun meidän tarinamme alkoi, kuukauden päästä on kulunut vuosi kun se loppui. Se kuukausi oli elämäni onnellisin, täydellisin ja täysin. Sen taianomaisen kuukauden jälkeen minä kuolin.

Hatered

I'll paint my pain
Create an image for my suffering
Just to burn it all...
Im calling the rain
to wash away the sins of yesterday
to make this plain clear once again

My place is forbid
my skyplace is overthroned
it's better ot reign in hell than serve in heaven.
This is my remose
my repent
give me what i deserve
Come fort, from the darkness, into the light.

May the heavens weep in sorrow,
and the grounds tremble in fear
for darkness has been summoned
and the end shall soon be here.

Lost in the world, abandoned
catching the wind, retribution
Kiss the shadows, embracement
Selfdestructin, salvation.

Beloved.

From the depths of eternity, from the everlasting void i heard your call.
The crystal clear voice of an siren called to me. Fighting thru nightmares,
My heart started to sing once again, rejecting all warnings, telling me to jump.
For the withering moment, for the setting sun and all that is pure, i hope someday you
would be mine. Hear my call, the undying oath; i give myself to you, i give my heart to you.
You are my dream, my last hope in this world.

Take my hand and be alive
Take my hand and be mine.
For the glory of tomorrow, let me in your inner circle.

For once you falled apart,
got broken, and scattered in the dust.
Time of your ressurection is near,
let me be the one, whom shall heal you and your scarred heart.

I’ll give you my hear, my toughts, my soul, my everything, the only thing that makes me feel is you.
Break me, tear me, devour me, destroy me, and i wouldn’t care.
Tear me to pieces, its nothing compared to the pain you suffer day to day, let me take you away.

I didn’t ask for this,
I didn’t ask for these feelings,
im afraid youll go away.
Keep me my darling,
let me become your darkness,
let me embrace you and take your scars away.

Take my hand and be alive
Take my hand and be mine.
For the glory of tomorrow, let me in your inner circle.

I still carry your picture in my pocket. I tell myself i dont need it, i dont care.
You banished me, rejected me, exiled me.
Now i wander on the shores of despair.
The waves washes away my tears, only sins remain.
Twisted, burned, left to live.

Wrath, pain, desolation, the enthroned things in my life,
Occupating my toughts, poisoning me, burning me.
The blade is calling me, it has been so silent for years,
now its calling me, the pain is sedutive once again.
Drown me in blood, cold, black as the ocean.
And the shores of despair remains.

Deformed, twisted, tortured. My being so dismembered. Crouching to the shore.
Trembling with pain, hoping to perish. I tried to rip my heart out, it turned to dust and
got carried with the wind. I cling on my last resorts, pain, hatered, corruption, and the urge to kill.
I seal your picture, and replace my heart with it. It stays inside, along these cursed vains.
I dont need you, i dont need anyone. Your corrupted hearts cant stand the sight of me anymore.
Filthy, disposed, decayed, so unclean. Cleanse me, purify my soul and send me back to the light.
Let the sun warm my frozen limbs and let me be free...

Toughts of you are tearing me apart
gently pulling my veins out of my arms, blackening my blood,
turning me to dust.

Memory of the promises
memory of the feelings

Now void, emptyness.
Trying to cry, feeling numb and hoping to perish.
Once the light fades away, only darkness remains.
Now i havent got the time, the answers, the humanity.
Burn me. Just burn me.