Louhetar

Kulje kanssani
Läpi tuulen ja jäätävän veen
Lumen ja helteen
Anna kätesi ja anna minun pitää kiinni
Älä koskaan päästä irti
Jaa kanssani kaikki se minkä olet valolta piilottanut
Ja syvälle haudannut
Katso minuun kuten minä katson sinuun
Pyyteettömyydellä
Aitoudella
Rakkaudella

Olet jo antanut minulle enemmän
Kuin kukaan koskaan, ikinä
Sinä olet sydämeni
Sieluni ja liekkini
Sinusta on tullut minulle ainoa maailmassa
Anna minun tulla sinulle ainoaksi maailmassa

Tänään on se päivä jona kohtaan auringon viimeisen kerran yksin
Tänään on se päivä jona sinusta tulee aurinkoni, viimeiseen henkäykseeni asti
Tänään minä kuulun sinulle
Ja sinä kuulut minulle

Kaikki mennyt on mennyttä
Kaikki tuleva on tulevaa
Yhdessä me kirjoitamme tarinaa
Jonka en soisi loppuvan milloinkaan

Sinä olet se mikä minusta puuttuu
Ilman sinua olen vain tyhjä kuori
Kävelevä vainaja
Täytä minut niin minä täytän sinut
Tästä iänkaikkiseen, revontuliin ja takaisin.

Kanssasi unohdan itseni
Näen vain sinut, enkä muuta tarvitse

Tosirakkaus ei tule kello kaulassa
Se tapahtuu vahingossa
Yhden kohtalokkaan sydämenlyönnin aikana...

Chains of our darkness.

Can i be sincere, can i tell you what i really think and let it all out?
The truth is, i think of you all the time, fantasizing about how our life's could, should be.
You're distant, keeping me away, getting further and further away.
I'll hunt you down, i'll find you wherever you hide, and i'm going to make you mine.

You can make it easy, you can make it hard, but in the end, we shall be one.
You draw me closer when you try to keep your distance. Giving me nothing, asking for nothing.

We can not be forsaken, we are alike. The past keeps stalking us, near or far, the past
will haunt us.

I see hell in your eyes, just like looking into my soul, i still can feel the flames.
Your darkness is tearing you apart, just as me. Let me entwine our personal demons together
and let me be the darkest side of you, let me become the darkness around your heart, and let
me set you free.

Through victory our chains shall be broken.

Dawn

The smile of your face, the light in your eyes...
they call me, like a flame to a moth.
I've been imprisoned far too long in this cage,
the cage one call's depression, insecurity and self-loathing.
This is the time to break free, to spread my scarred wings, and fly.

I can feel it, my heart starting to beat,
faster and faster, deeper and deeper.
I can feel it filling up, and starting to overflow.
All the asphyxiated feelings, all the feelings buried long ago.
Now a new day has come, the new start for my heart,
a new start for my heart.

Be my guiding light in the darkness,
your smile is like falling rays of the sun in the forest in a fog.
Your eyes shine like the spring in a warm spring morning
Let me in your circle, let me feel your skin next to me, let me feel your breath on my skin.
Be my guardian angel in the darkness, my angel of darkness.

Kill me with your love, let me feel, and i will make you feel alive.

A new dawn arises.

Walls of depression

It's been almost five years, when you ripped my heart apart.
Almost five years, when you slept with him, and destroyed the things
i held dear. Now you're nothing but a faint memory, that still haunts me.

Get away from my head, get away from my heart, let me be free... let me be free.
Those years together, those cursed years full of betrayal, the years of deception.
They left me rotten, they left me dead, they left me cursed, and i can never be free.

Now it's time to fight, rise my fist in the air, and smite down the walls of desperation.
Strike by strike, blow by blow i can see the light again, for so long the sun has been dimmed,
now it's my time to live again.

My petrified heart starts to beat, to melt, to feel.
Let the light in, don't fight it, let the warmth scorch away all ice of the past.
Live and feel alive. Never again shall i be over encumbered by fear of yesterdays shadows.

Hollow vessel

The grip tightens around my neck again
The cold hand has catch up to me again
The grasp that freezes my soul, and at last my heart.
The words haunt me once again: You're not wanted...

It has been ages, the last time i felt
The pain kept my senses alert, and my mind sharp
Now i am dull, useless, a hollow vessel

I need you to hurt me, to tear me, to torture me
Feeling the agony once more, that's my wish
Don't keep the pain away, let it overwhelm myself
Let me fall to my knees, and do not help me up, just stand there
and give me time.

The wall around me is thick, but not impenetrable, if you are the one,
you'll shatter it... once again.

It has been ages, the last time i felt
The pain kept my senses alert, and my mind sharp
Now i am dull, useless, a hollow vessel

The pain comes, overwhelming my senses, making me whole,
all around me, i feel you watching from afar
I've been burned countless times, but this is the last time,
this time i'll born again, or perish to the space eternal
Within the flames i see you, smiling and reaching out for me
this time i know i cant give in to the fire, this time the flame becomes a part of me... forever.

Save me

For years now i've been killing myself, bit by bit,day by day.
The still shadows over my head remains silently,
gnawing my innards, gnawing away my heart.
I'll never be the same, i'll never smile like
i used to. I want to be alive, one more time.
This time i put it all in, this time i gamble
last of my soul, last of my heart.
This will be the time i'll perish.

Never knew where im going
Never knew where i've been
Never knowing the feeling of being truly loved
Never ceased to exist. Once again crumbling down.

This will be the last time, the last time to push on
the last time to pursue happines
This time i'll lose myself.

I need you now, more than ever... Where are you?
I'll give you anything, my love, my passion, my loyalty,
everything i am, all that i were, and all that i'll be.

Give me a reason to go on
Give me a reason to live on
Give me a reason to endure what lies ahead
Give me a reason to trust.

Be my guiding light in the dark,
show me the way
Help me keep control over myself, over
the demons dwelling inside my mind, inside my heart.


Never knew where im going
Never knew where i've been
Never knowing the feeling of being truly loved
Never ceased to exist. Once again crumbling down.

May the heavens weep in sorrow
and the grounds tremble in fear
for darkness has been summoned
and the end shall soon be here.

Save me my darling...
save me...

unnamed vol.666

When love dies, you feel like a child whom has lost her parents.
not having anything to cling on, anything to hope for.
When all hope is lost, when the last glimmer of light fades away, then you'll realise,
you are nothing.
When the breath escapes, as the last drop of blood falls, you know it is the end, and the
horsemen are coming.


I know my days are counted for, outnumbered. Still im clinging to this life, like a moth to a flame.
Searching hope, forgiveness, and a reason to live on.


Beneath all these scars, all this dirt and guilt i am still alive
After all those years, im still alive
After everything you put me trough, after all the blame, all the lies and all the emotions, im still here.
Now free as a bird i can arise and let my soul fly.